dalangin ko’y akap mo…
god, padalhan nio po ako ng angels nio pls… parang awa nio na po.. ipaakap nio po ako sa mga angels nio… kung hindi po’y pansamantalang ngitian man lang po.. pakihaplos po ng aking puso nang matuto po akong maging matatag pero hindi manhid… na matuto po akong tumanggap ngunit hindi mag-isip ng masama… turuan nio po akong magpatawad at magparaya… turuan nio po sana akong magmahal muli.sa panahon pong ito na wala akong matakbuhan, walang nakakaintindi sa akin, waAg nio po sana akong pababayaan. kahit bad po ako, mamahalin nio rin naman po ako diba? kahit bad po ako, kahit papaano tutulungan nio pa rin po ako diba? sana po oo ang sagot nio… kung hindi, sana po hayaan nio po akong kayanin ang lahat ng ito para hindi ako higit na magkasala sa inyong mga batas. maaawa na po kayo. kahit isang akap lang po…
December 9th, 2005 at 10:00 pm
Jel,
There is no defense for a grown-up…in becoming one or being one. In becoming one, there is always the first-time hurt, that reality is not that beautiful, that dreams DO DIE, that pain can sometimes be unendurable.
In being one, there is always that fear that what has happened will happen again, that one can be shorn of all defenses and “wisdom” and be as naked and vulnerable like in one’s youth.
Pray give understanding to those who appear grown-up but just as vulnerable and scared just like you. Pray that you have the courage to continue.
All I can say is, “This too will pass.” Remember the wisdom that we never do control the things that happen to us, but all we can do is make the best of the time that is given to us.
Smile. Because it’s free, and it does set us free.