~OnCe UpOn @ T!mE!~ [mah fairy tale s2ry]

Huwag mo akong lapitan baka akoý iyong saktan. Huwag mo na akong guluhin, magulung-magulo na ako. Huwag kang magkakamaling “mahalin”din ako dahil baka hindi ko na kayanin pa.

Hindi ko na hihilinging diyan ka lagi ‘pag kailangan kita. Nagmamakaawa ako, umalis ka na lang sa buhay ko. Kung pwede lang lumuhod ako sa harapan mo, luluhod ako. Sasabihin kong lumayo ka na lang dahil hindi ka katulad ko. Hindi mo ako maiintindihan. Hindi mo ako mapakikinggan. Magpasalamat ka na lang sa Diyos at wala ka sa kalagayan ko.

I’m cold, I’m tired, and I’m dead exhausted. Please stop killing me softly. You and the rest of the world. Can’t you stop being cruel and give me one big shot! I’m sick and tired of crying yet that is all I can do. WHY? You all made it so clear: I WILL NEVER WIN! No matter how hard I try to stay alive, to stay happy, to stay me! You will never hear me out, never understand, never learn who I am… You think you’re so right.. No! You do not see who you’ve made be become. You do not see the scars you’ve left me for life. YOU DON’T HEAR THAT YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND!

So to you who patiently tries to love, listen and understand me, please… don’t wait for my tears to dry or my heart to heal… The marks and scars will always remain. They will always hunt me back. Nothing is genuine. My end is near… unless by a long shot that someone makes my life simple and wash away my tears.

But no… I have stopped dreaming… stopped caring… stopped hoping. In the end, I know, that someone will never be there. In the end, I’ll always loose, always fail, always amount to nothing but the filth that I am. So please, don’t make this any harder and leave. Soon, I am gone… soon you will rejoice… soon my love, SOON!

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